Sometimes I feel like letting go
Forgetting all the things I didn’t want to know
And in the end I feel no bliss
I feel so cheated out of happiness
Let’s imagine how would life be
In the future just you and me
It could be so perfect
Only on the surface
Stuck here in reality I
Dream of brilliant life in due time
It’s too overrated
What my head created
Spin it round and round
Beat it in the ground
Do not make a sound
Still myself I’ve found
Lost in my delusions
Head up in the clouds
Safe here in my space
Isolated thoughts
I am fine right here
Weary but still tamed
Do not fix me I
Do not want to be saved
Sometimes I feel like letting go
Forgetting all the things I didn’t want to know
And in the end I feel no bliss
I feel so cheated out of happiness
Sometimes I wish I hadn’t tried
To save the fear and pain, but now my hands are tied
But could I face it wouldn’t last
Or cling to dreamland and the past
Just a little longer can I
Stay here in my conscience but I
Know I can’t forever
Soon I have to sever
I must come to terms with all this
Why I learned more when I noticed
Not what I imagined
Reared into reality
Things go fast downhill
Worsening the thrill
I grew more weakened
So the time came when
Truth hits hard and I
Cannot take the blow
Breaking down at my
Mind’s subconscious core
My refusal to
Know that this is real
Only serves me to
Numb all that I feel
I’ve just me to blame
Nothing but the same
Inner living hell
I brought on myself
If I could keep an open mind
I might restore the lights and leave this all behind
But I am so stuck in my fantasies
Of what I want my perfect life to be
But maybe I can
Stop this crippled me
And lay him to rest
Perhaps it’s just a pipe dream
Start the healing at the center
Core unfreezing open further
Let it go forever
Maybe I can sever
Quickly I can come to terms with
My mad rampant fantasies and
See the inward value
How could I be so shallow
Throwing myself in
Games I cannot win
End where I begin
So’s the me of then
But Now I see the truth
Clearing all the fog
No more solid proof
States I’m in the wrong
I know where I stand
So I feel all right
No more master plan
Maybe now I can
live my life